this right here is my first official post on my own blog. I decided to introduce myself. Honestly, I am not a very cool or super interesting person. But I don’t have to be. In the first place I am doing it for myself(do people even read blogs these days?)
So, about me. My name is Sofia(my besties call me soap 🙂 and I am 15. If you are wondering about the name of this blog it is a combination of my nickname and pig 🐷 , because I just LOVE pigs. (Of course I am vegetarian 🌱, I would feel so bad if I liked pigs and at the same time would eat them. I have been since I was 11. But I know that going vegetarian 🌱 isn’t for everyone and I wouldn’t ever try to force my opinions onto anyone. To be honest I simply have never liked the taste of meat, thus it was easy for me.)
Whenever someone asks me where I am from, I always hesitate. It is a little complicated.
My whole family is from Belarus(except for some relatives on my dad’s side that are from Ukraine) and I was born there. When I turned 6 I went to school there for one month(after living in Minsk, the capital, and changing a few kindergartens, I moved to my mom’s family’s city). And then suddenly my parents had the chance to move to Germany 🇩🇪.
Since then I have lived in 4 cities here.
Next school year I will attend my 8th school 🏫 in total (for the first time I am switching schools for my own personal reasons 😉 )
To many it might seem too much, but I swear, every time I have moved, something changed. I could never imagine going back. Every time I grew up a little more.
Never ever would I say that moving so much only has positive aspects.
The negative aspects are:
-I have a little identity crisis People in Germany see me as Russian even if I tell them a thousand times that I am not. I don’t feel German enough, but at the same time I am just not Belarusian enough. Because I don’t live there. Thus I do everything in English, I would feel bad for thinking in German, but I often don’t have enough experience to do things in Russian. Even though I speak it at home, sometimes it is hard for me to express myself.
Another thing I feel bad about: I don’t speak my country’s language(Belarusian). Even though I do understand it, I don’t speak it it. It is embarrassing. But many Belarusians don’t.
-I get bored easily
Some days I just have this feeling,
this need to change things completely and to move on.
I get bored of my home, my city, my school and the people around me.
What I want is to see something new. A new place, a new country. The whole world 🗺.
about my interests: I have always been interested in learning about others, about different cultures and languages. the languages I am learning: -English(I am not bad at it, but there is always room for improvement), -French(since 7th grade at school), -Spanish (extracurricular at school since grade 9) – Korean(extracurricular, I started this year at school, but learned some things on my own before) the languages I want to learn: -Italian( I signed up for next school year, I hope so much that I will be able to do it and Spanish at the same time) -Mandarin (I signed up for it in 8th grade and started it, but then I moved.I believe that Mandarin is a language one really needs a teacher for.) -Belarusian (passively I am learning some things, but I want to be more active)
-Japanese (I learned some things on my own in 6th/7th grade, but I don’t really remember anything) -there are so many more, but these are my goals for the near future
—————————————————————— -reading 📖 (mostly in English, I am loving Agatha Christie at the moment ) – fashion (I want to learn how to sew—> sustainability) -psychology( I want to become a psychologist, even though I am terrible at Maths—> I want to improve and I am working on it) -writing -I am training to become a church guide at my local church ⛪️ ( as a part-time-job on weekends).And I love it. -Kpop and Kdrama(don’t judge me please, because a lot of people do) —————————————————————— things I am extremely bad at: -karate ( I did it for one year and realized that it is just not for me, I am planning on trying tennis as soon as possible) -sports in general, even though I don’t hate it -MATHS (but I want to change that ) ++ I am very shy, I like to talk to people and in my mind I am extroverted.Sadly, I get anxious a lot.But I am working on it.I don’t want my social anxiety to stop me from living the life I want(it is going to be a topic for one of my upcoming blog posts). Goodbye, if you have read this far…thank you so so much for taking time to read this long ass (and not even interesting or educating) blog post.With time I will improve my writing skills, I promise! 🧚♀️✨🧚♀️